STOP! step away from the baby clothes!

okay- dh and i tried for a year before we got preggo with m/c and in that time everytime i would get down i would let myself wander into the baby section of the store and by something for my future baby. Well, we were at Meijer tonight and i was SUPPOSED to be shopping for my friend whose baby shower was last week and i came across the sweetest little duck outfit that i wanted so bad, but i couldn't bring myself to buy it. I mean, it was $5, but I have 2 drawers full of baby stuff and still no baby to wear it. everyone tells me that I'm jinxing myself but i always figure that I can find someone to give it to if I never get to have one. This time I put it down and was able to say it's not really the outfit that I want but what goes in it and i realized that even if dh and i got pregnant in March, it would still be 11 months at the EARLIEST that anything I have could wear it. so more then likely i have another year/ year and a half! can you believe that??? i have been living my life in anticipation of the birth of my child since i brought it up to dh new year's eve 2005- that's 3 years. he made me wait until 2007 to try and now i'm looking at it being 2 years from that point before i have a baby- if then? and the only thing i can wonder is- where in the hell have the last 3 years gone? i mean, it hasn't all been about baby, but the last year has been. I really am waiting for godot here. Could I really just forget about it and move on at this point though? I'm really just in too deep to quit. grrrr. i loathe dh sometimes for making me wait, but then again if i would have known it was going to take so long, i wouldn't have bothered bringing it up that early in the first place. i'm really getting impatient at this point!