freaking me out...

so the nurse at my ob's must hate me. we used to work together. she was a bitch then and apparently things haven't changed. so i went in today. weight- 9 lb gain...i thought it was 7. i told james that and she corrected me. "no, it's 9". Which got me really worried because I have tried to be so good. then she took me into the room and started asking me if the dr had put me on any dietary restrictions and i said no and then she took my bp and read it at 130/90. She had me lay on my side, lectured me about it being high and then went away for 10 minutes. came back 134/92. so she left me laying. dr came in and read it not less than 5 minutes later 120/64. this is the third time that this nurse has read it and the drs reading has been 20 less than hers and the dr tells her to take me in and lay me down before doing my read and she doesn't listen. all the while the nurse is lecturing me about nutrition and i'm just like- okay- just because i'm overweight doesn't mean that i don't take care of myself or worry about every single little thing that i do having some negative influence on my baby. don't they know i'm scared enough already? so i came home and cried for like 20 minutes because apparently i'm a horrible person whose eating habits are going to harm her baby. these people are horrible. i can't wait for this to be over.