Week 2

Things are looking better here on Walton's Mountain. My milk supply is keeping up despite the warnings from friends on the board that it wasn't as good as nursing and I am having some luck getting Amelia to latch when she's stressed. I'm not complaining. I've started actively hunting for jobs after last week's impromptu phone interview that I botched (they woke me up after being up half the night). Other then that things are getting easier. Amelia is still sleeping about 20 hours a day which frees up a lot of time. James is petering out on me with the staying up with the baby bit after she turned his last endeavor to "take care of her while I slept" into a blindfolded trip down the Ho Chi Minh but aside from that, it's not bad...actually it's almost a little boring. I don't have a lot of physical recovery to do so i've been doing a lot of housework. And I've lost 27 lbs in 2 weeks. thank you amelia. I feel a little out of touch with my irl friends but i figured that would happen as i'm not overly close them. In the last week, I've successfully applied for 5 jobs and wonder why cover letters are necessary. I mean, it's obvious I want the job. I know no one reads cover letters. So, why are they so hard to write? I've also watched all of season 3 of big love and half of the john adams' hbo miniseries. I'm going through what I refer to as "new mom guilt"....literally all i want to do is hold and rock my baby but my mom's voice in my head tells me to put her down and let her be. So i feel guilty for holding her and put her in her bouncy seat or on her play mat and then i feel bad for laying her down. lmao. i'm sure I'll adjust. I guess maternity leave is really just a way to wean yourself away from being pregnant and having 24-7 baby access